Some gloomy thoughts

Spent the last 3 hours reading about American serial-killers after watching Silence of the Lambs. Now I've been left feeling traumatised and have completely lost faith in humanity. What's most scary is that many of these killers look and behave like normal people, so you had no idea that inside they were depraved and completely fucked up. What's more incredulous is that they are still treated like human beings after being convicted, despite everything they've done. They are interviewed, allowed to see family, dress up nicely in suits and everything. It's like they're perfectly human, yet inside they're monsters. They seem to have no trouble killing, mutilating, and dismembering their victims. Some of them even perform necrophilia.

But then again, we decapitate the heads off fish, squash ants, butcher cows and sheep and eat their meat, skin animals while they're still alive to take their fur, all like its a normal part of life. The only difference between us and serial killers seems to be that we don't do it to our own species. Yet people kill each other all the time, in the name of God, in the name of country, or even in the name of peace. If you really think about it, human beings are fucked up and the nature of reality is cruel. It's a bloody violent world where life and death are constantly happening and survival of the fittest is the only true law that every living organism abides by.

I guess im just in a gloomy mood today. There are obviously also many beautiful and redeeming features of this world. To delve into the dark side of it all and truly understand the cruel nature of reality would drive any human being mad. I guess that's why they say ignorance is bliss.

But seriously, we live in a fucked up world with dangers all around us and people need to be aware of these risks. Im not saying that you should live life constantly in fear of everything so much that it will prevent you from enjoying it (cause wouldn't that be a fate worse than death?), but you can never be too careful. Sometimes life or death rests in one simple decision.