常常责怪自己 当初不应该
常常后悔没有 自己留下来
为什么明明相爱 到最后还是要离开
是否我们的爱 是个错误的意外
谁知道如时和你 重次相遇在人海
命运如此安排 总叫人无奈
这些年过得不好不坏 只是身边少了一个人存在
让我渐渐明白 时间不变我对你的关怀
有多少爱 我如此感慨 有多少人 愿意等待
当你飘洋过海 只希望那份爱 会从新点燃
有多少爱 能让我明白 有多少人 值得等待
当世界已桑田沧海 我仍会勇敢地去爱
有多少爱 如此艰难 有多少人 愿意忍耐
当你飘洋过海 只希望那份爱 仍然会存在
有多少爱 能让我明白 有多少人 值得等待
当你我已桑田沧海 只希望我们 仍会情深似海
即世界已桑田沧海 也不会变我们的盟山誓海
我愿意为你等待
因为你值得等待
我相信我们的爱
不会被时间和距离打败。
Sunday, 5 October 2014
Thursday, 21 August 2014
My turn
I love the Voice of China.
I love it for many reasons; the banter, the entertainment, the beautiful melodies, and of course, the beautiful contestants ;)
But what I love most is the feeling of seeing someone at their best. There are many styles of singing and everyone have their own tastes in music; but without a doubt, every person that comes on stage is extremely talented at what they do. That's what I love seeing the most - people being able to exhibit something that they excel at. Seemingly just normal people that you wouldn't look twice at if you were to pass them on the streets, when these contestants step on stage, for a few short minutes they are able to outshine the brightest of stars (no pun intended).
Watching them, their amazing talent makes me very aware of my lack thereof. But rather than feeling regretful, I feel motivated. As you already know, I don't have any particular talents. I'm not good at singing like some people, or good at an instrument or a sport. My best chance of ever being in the spot light in this lifetime is through my career (yea it's probably a bit late to pick up my electric guitar again, or acting). I don't think I'll ever be the hugely successful or wealthy, but I would like to be acknowledged by my peers one day as someone who was talented at something, even if it was something as boring as environmental science.
I've wanted to be many things in my life. An actor, a guitarist, a basketball player, a table tennis player, a chess player, a Starcraft player, a player (insert rimshot), a break-dancer, a skateboarder, a University professor, a mathematician, an army general, a Dragonball Z fighter, a Gundam pilot, and of course, a Pokemon trainer.
But now, this is my dream.
To be the very best.
Like no one ever was.
...in Environmental Science.
And with this dream in mind, I am leaving my current job and moving into an environmental scientist role at a consulting company. In fact, tomorrow is my last day at Renex.
It's been an amazing 7 month. My experiences have varied from getting up before 6am to bike to work in the rain to smoking cigars and drinking scotch with the Execs in my suit. My roles have ranged from giving advice to our CEO to shoveling contaminated sludge out of a pit with a shovel. My days have diversified from feeling like im on top of the world to wanting to kill myself. Such was the roller coaster ride I have been on for the last 7 months.
Now it's finally time for me to move on. Like they say, every job is a stepping stone to your dream career (or was it something about girls?). I believe I have finally found my ideal job.
After 50 job applications, 5 job interviews and 2 jobs, I have finally found the starting line for my dream career. Like a judge turning around in the blind auditions, this is only the beginning. But like the contestants, an opportunity was all I needed.
The rest ishistory future.
I love it for many reasons; the banter, the entertainment, the beautiful melodies, and of course, the beautiful contestants ;)
But what I love most is the feeling of seeing someone at their best. There are many styles of singing and everyone have their own tastes in music; but without a doubt, every person that comes on stage is extremely talented at what they do. That's what I love seeing the most - people being able to exhibit something that they excel at. Seemingly just normal people that you wouldn't look twice at if you were to pass them on the streets, when these contestants step on stage, for a few short minutes they are able to outshine the brightest of stars (no pun intended).
Watching them, their amazing talent makes me very aware of my lack thereof. But rather than feeling regretful, I feel motivated. As you already know, I don't have any particular talents. I'm not good at singing like some people, or good at an instrument or a sport. My best chance of ever being in the spot light in this lifetime is through my career (yea it's probably a bit late to pick up my electric guitar again, or acting). I don't think I'll ever be the hugely successful or wealthy, but I would like to be acknowledged by my peers one day as someone who was talented at something, even if it was something as boring as environmental science.
I've wanted to be many things in my life. An actor, a guitarist, a basketball player, a table tennis player, a chess player, a Starcraft player, a player (insert rimshot), a break-dancer, a skateboarder, a University professor, a mathematician, an army general, a Dragonball Z fighter, a Gundam pilot, and of course, a Pokemon trainer.
But now, this is my dream.
To be the very best.
Like no one ever was.
...in Environmental Science.
And with this dream in mind, I am leaving my current job and moving into an environmental scientist role at a consulting company. In fact, tomorrow is my last day at Renex.
It's been an amazing 7 month. My experiences have varied from getting up before 6am to bike to work in the rain to smoking cigars and drinking scotch with the Execs in my suit. My roles have ranged from giving advice to our CEO to shoveling contaminated sludge out of a pit with a shovel. My days have diversified from feeling like im on top of the world to wanting to kill myself. Such was the roller coaster ride I have been on for the last 7 months.
Now it's finally time for me to move on. Like they say, every job is a stepping stone to your dream career (or was it something about girls?). I believe I have finally found my ideal job.
After 50 job applications, 5 job interviews and 2 jobs, I have finally found the starting line for my dream career. Like a judge turning around in the blind auditions, this is only the beginning. But like the contestants, an opportunity was all I needed.
The rest is
Saturday, 5 July 2014
One step at a time
I took my first big step towards the adult life at the age of 21, on the day my other half decided to become a part of my life. Being with her opened up a whole new world to me and enabled me to become more emotionally mature.
My second big step towards becoming a fully fledged adult was when I moved out of home and came to Melbourne to live by myself. While I was not financially independent, having to manage and deal with everything by myself was definitely a challenging yet rewarding experience.
The third big step was when I finally graduated from university, and from the education system as a whole, and entered the workforce. I had already been working part time towards the end of my school year, but it wasn't till 3 months after I graduated that I became a full-time sky-blue-collar (what you get when you mix blue with white).
Yesterday, I took my fourth big step in my adult life; I bought my very first car: a 2009 VW Golf. Now this may not seem like a big deal to you, as we all know the cool kids already had their owns cars in high school. But for me, it is monumental. They say 找车跟找老婆一样难. All I can say is at least my wife isn't going to break my bank account (or have I understood marriage completely wrong?).
Buying my first car has so far been a Clockwork-Orange-joy-ride that is as exciting as it is painful, stressful, tyre-ing, and terrifying. The amount of research, searching, looking, and bargaining that is involved is simply exhaust-ing (okay I'll stop with the car puns now). But I guess all this work is justified, because a car is the second most expensive thing you'll ever buy. I spent all of my savings (plus more) on this car, just so that I can drive to work so that I can make more money. Yes, the irony of it all has not escaped me.
On the bright side, getting to places will no longer be such a pain, and I can finally have the chance to explore more of Melbourne, Victoria, and even Australia. In the end, buying a car is the essential next big step in my life. It marks the day I am no longer a slave to the whims, antics and sadism of the public transport system. It marks the day I no longer have to deal creepy old men and cross-dressing cyclists, or even the usual 'friendly' Dandenong locals and commuters. It marks the day I no longer have to eye-joust with the person sitting opposite me on the train, or stare awkwardly out the window upon defeat. It marks the day I no longer have to cycle in the cold, wet, windy Melbournian winter. It marks the day I no longer have to cycle.
We all have our big moments in life. For me, this is one of them. I hope that I will be able to create some cherished memories with this car, and that it may accompany me through meaningful journeys in the years to come. Most of all, I just hope it doesn't break.....
......or get ambushed by trees. TROLOLOLOLOLOLOL. BW out.
Photos below!
My second big step towards becoming a fully fledged adult was when I moved out of home and came to Melbourne to live by myself. While I was not financially independent, having to manage and deal with everything by myself was definitely a challenging yet rewarding experience.
The third big step was when I finally graduated from university, and from the education system as a whole, and entered the workforce. I had already been working part time towards the end of my school year, but it wasn't till 3 months after I graduated that I became a full-time sky-blue-collar (what you get when you mix blue with white).
Yesterday, I took my fourth big step in my adult life; I bought my very first car: a 2009 VW Golf. Now this may not seem like a big deal to you, as we all know the cool kids already had their owns cars in high school. But for me, it is monumental. They say 找车跟找老婆一样难. All I can say is at least my wife isn't going to break my bank account (or have I understood marriage completely wrong?).
Buying my first car has so far been a Clockwork-Orange-joy-ride that is as exciting as it is painful, stressful, tyre-ing, and terrifying. The amount of research, searching, looking, and bargaining that is involved is simply exhaust-ing (okay I'll stop with the car puns now). But I guess all this work is justified, because a car is the second most expensive thing you'll ever buy. I spent all of my savings (plus more) on this car, just so that I can drive to work so that I can make more money. Yes, the irony of it all has not escaped me.
On the bright side, getting to places will no longer be such a pain, and I can finally have the chance to explore more of Melbourne, Victoria, and even Australia. In the end, buying a car is the essential next big step in my life. It marks the day I am no longer a slave to the whims, antics and sadism of the public transport system. It marks the day I no longer have to deal creepy old men and cross-dressing cyclists, or even the usual 'friendly' Dandenong locals and commuters. It marks the day I no longer have to eye-joust with the person sitting opposite me on the train, or stare awkwardly out the window upon defeat. It marks the day I no longer have to cycle in the cold, wet, windy Melbournian winter. It marks the day I no longer have to cycle.
We all have our big moments in life. For me, this is one of them. I hope that I will be able to create some cherished memories with this car, and that it may accompany me through meaningful journeys in the years to come. Most of all, I just hope it doesn't break.....
......or get ambushed by trees. TROLOLOLOLOLOLOL. BW out.
Photos below!
Saturday, 24 May 2014
Another midnight musing session
当这里是深更半夜，
我静静凝视着电脑屏幕，
没有人能知道我有多想哭。
那些过去美好的记忆，
在我脑海里旋转，虚无方向。
抱紧我，
抱紧我，
直到我有一种温暖的感觉。
我真的需要你来爱护我，
像个孩子。
We've been together for nearly 1 year and 9 months now. Not a single day goes by without me thinking about you, missing you.
Long distance is hard, especially when the number of months we've actually been together can be counted on one hand, while the number of months we've been apart cannot be counted on even two. However despite how hard it has been, it's been an incredible journey so far. I hope with all my heart that we can make it to the very end. We're three quarters of the way there now, only one quarter of the way left.
One quarter. That doesn't sound a lot does it? Well, that's still another 6 months. That's 26 weeks. Or 182 days. Or 4368 hours. Or 262,080 minutes. Or 15,724,800 seconds. When you put it like that, it does sound like a lot.
But then again, time does fly. Can you believe that I've lived in Melbourne for 15 months now?? And that it's been a year since I've gone back to New Zealand?? It didn't feel that long ago when I was driving around the streets of Auckland in the middle of the night in our little Swift.
Has it really been a year since I saw my dad? It didn't feel like that long ago when our whole family went to Handa for buffet lunch.
Was it really a year ago that I last saw my friends? It didn't feel that long ago when me and the boys were eating and laughing at Hopes Way, or singing 天高地厚 with Simon at Jeannie's birthday.
Fuck. Where did the time go? The last two years just felt like a blur to me. I have memories in my head of things happening, yet I do not remember doing them. It's like I have been asleep the past two years, and someone has merely implanted memories within my head to trick me into believing I had been awake. One moment I'm still studying and living comfortably in Auckland surrounded by my friends and family, and the next I'm by myself in Melbourne working full time. It really scares me to think that this is going to become the rest of my life - working that is.
Each week, Im going to spend the weekdays working and the weeknights and weekends recuperating from work. Then rinse and repeat for 50 weeks of each year, for 40 years of the rest of my life. When I think about it like that, it really makes me question whether there is more to life than that. I mean I suppose in between all that working I will somehow manage to find the time to get married, have kids, buy a house, and raise my kids in it. But still, there's got to be more to it than that!
I know it's naive for me to think that, because all our lives we have been preparing for this point. All 18 or so years of education is to prepare us for a life of work. But just because this is the way it is, does it mean this is the way it has to be? Don't get me wrong, I still want to succeed and achieve great things in my life, and to be able to do that, I have to work.
But...
But...
But...there's got to be more to life that just what I have now. Beyond working, I don't know what to do with myself. I feel so empty inside these days, and so lost. I guess it's because she's not here. I think if she was here, I would feel a lot better. But that day is still 6 months away. So for now, the only company I will have on these lonely nights are the distant stars and the vacant smoke drifting from my cigarette.
我静静凝视着电脑屏幕，
没有人能知道我有多想哭。
那些过去美好的记忆，
在我脑海里旋转，虚无方向。
抱紧我，
抱紧我，
直到我有一种温暖的感觉。
我真的需要你来爱护我，
像个孩子。
We've been together for nearly 1 year and 9 months now. Not a single day goes by without me thinking about you, missing you.
Long distance is hard, especially when the number of months we've actually been together can be counted on one hand, while the number of months we've been apart cannot be counted on even two. However despite how hard it has been, it's been an incredible journey so far. I hope with all my heart that we can make it to the very end. We're three quarters of the way there now, only one quarter of the way left.
One quarter. That doesn't sound a lot does it? Well, that's still another 6 months. That's 26 weeks. Or 182 days. Or 4368 hours. Or 262,080 minutes. Or 15,724,800 seconds. When you put it like that, it does sound like a lot.
But then again, time does fly. Can you believe that I've lived in Melbourne for 15 months now?? And that it's been a year since I've gone back to New Zealand?? It didn't feel that long ago when I was driving around the streets of Auckland in the middle of the night in our little Swift.
Has it really been a year since I saw my dad? It didn't feel like that long ago when our whole family went to Handa for buffet lunch.
Was it really a year ago that I last saw my friends? It didn't feel that long ago when me and the boys were eating and laughing at Hopes Way, or singing 天高地厚 with Simon at Jeannie's birthday.
Fuck. Where did the time go? The last two years just felt like a blur to me. I have memories in my head of things happening, yet I do not remember doing them. It's like I have been asleep the past two years, and someone has merely implanted memories within my head to trick me into believing I had been awake. One moment I'm still studying and living comfortably in Auckland surrounded by my friends and family, and the next I'm by myself in Melbourne working full time. It really scares me to think that this is going to become the rest of my life - working that is.
Each week, Im going to spend the weekdays working and the weeknights and weekends recuperating from work. Then rinse and repeat for 50 weeks of each year, for 40 years of the rest of my life. When I think about it like that, it really makes me question whether there is more to life than that. I mean I suppose in between all that working I will somehow manage to find the time to get married, have kids, buy a house, and raise my kids in it. But still, there's got to be more to it than that!
I know it's naive for me to think that, because all our lives we have been preparing for this point. All 18 or so years of education is to prepare us for a life of work. But just because this is the way it is, does it mean this is the way it has to be? Don't get me wrong, I still want to succeed and achieve great things in my life, and to be able to do that, I have to work.
But...
But...
But...there's got to be more to life that just what I have now. Beyond working, I don't know what to do with myself. I feel so empty inside these days, and so lost. I guess it's because she's not here. I think if she was here, I would feel a lot better. But that day is still 6 months away. So for now, the only company I will have on these lonely nights are the distant stars and the vacant smoke drifting from my cigarette.
Friday, 9 May 2014
Midnight musings about life and success
Every time I listen to this song, something stirs inside of me and emotions well up.
Or maybe it's the way how both singers pour all their passion, ability and skills into this one song in the hopes of making their dreams come true. Only one contestant can emerge victorious and move one step closer to achieving what they've worked towards all their lives, and the way each of them musters all their abilities and skills and give it their all really resonates with me on a deep level.
Its the same when I watch the very first fight between Goku and Vegeta. The way both Saiyans push themselves to the limit and summons all their powers and energy to beat the other just makes my blood boil.
I mean how fucking cool is that.
The truth is, life IS a battlefield. And there are real winners and losers. Of course, I dont mean it in that life is a game where there can only be one winner. Rather, while everyone is ultimately a loser in the game of life (cause dying is effectively losing right?), when it comes to individual situations, there are those who succeed, and those who fail. Obvious examples include sports, love, and jobs.
And this applies to every single one of us, everyday. We all want things. We want things to happen, we want to own things. But life doesn't simply just give it to us, because magic genies that grant wishes don't exist in the real world (or at least the one I live in). So you have to fight for it. Thus every time we desire something, we are left in a situation where we can either win or lose.
Personally, I don't think im a sore loser. I know there will be many times where I lose, and I already have lost many times. But I don't WANT to lose. I want to win.
I want to win so fucking badly. You can laugh at me as you read this if you want, but the truth is I really really really really want to win.
I want to succeed. I want to accomplish things. I want to be in a position where I have power, money, and influence. I want to be respected and admired by others. I want to be someone that women want to be with, and men want to be. I want to be Goku. Or Batman. Or Iron Man. Or Barack Obama. Or Adam Levine. Or Justin Timberlake. Or Bradley Cooper. Or Bill Gates. Or Steve Jobs. You get the gist.
I have great aspirations for my life, because if there is one thing I hate, it is mediocrity. I'm not happy with where I am at the moment, nor am I happy with the pace of how things are moving along (I know this contradicts what I've said in an earlier post, but part of me is unhappy. And increasingly im beginning to think it's the larger part). I feel stuck, and I don't know how to un-stuck myself (im so eloquent, I know).
I wish I could push forward. I wish I could somehow find a way to break through. Find a way to reach my goals faster. Find a way to get what I want. Time is moving too slow. I AM moving too slow. At this rate, Ill long be dead before I can reach where I want to be.
For one to be successful, the 4 main ingredients are: desire, effort, luck, and know-how. I definitely have the desire to succeed. I am working on the effort. Luck is out of my control.
Now I just gotta know how.
Friday, 2 May 2014
Life goals
The best thing about being an adult is that you have total control over your life. It means that you can do whatever you want and pursue whatever you desire. It also means that you must take complete responsibility for all your actions and their consequences; you can no longer blame your parents or family for something that happens or for not being able to do something you always wanted to.
Armed with the knowledge that my parents no longer have any control over my life and that I do not owe it to them to do anything (other than pay my dues as a son should), I feel very excited about the future. There are so many things I want to do with my life, so many possibilities, and I am the one that can make it all happen.
I think in the next ten years, I envisage one of two scenarios for my life:
1. I have married and settled down in Australia; or
2. I am living in the south coast of France, chatting with beautiful French girls in fluent French while drinking French wine. Or maybe I'll be kicking it in Germany as a promising Environmental Engineer. Or in Sweden. Or the Netherlands.
Either way, it is my goal to make one of those two above scenarios happen in the next 10 years. There will be no excuses not to make it happen. I will no longer able to blame my parents for holding me back, or blame youth for being the source of my ineptitude. I am solely responsible for what happens in my life now.
Well...me and fate.
Also, it has always been my dream to attend Oxford. Perhaps one day I will be able to make it a reality.
Armed with the knowledge that my parents no longer have any control over my life and that I do not owe it to them to do anything (other than pay my dues as a son should), I feel very excited about the future. There are so many things I want to do with my life, so many possibilities, and I am the one that can make it all happen.
I think in the next ten years, I envisage one of two scenarios for my life:
1. I have married and settled down in Australia; or
2. I am living in the south coast of France, chatting with beautiful French girls in fluent French while drinking French wine. Or maybe I'll be kicking it in Germany as a promising Environmental Engineer. Or in Sweden. Or the Netherlands.
Either way, it is my goal to make one of those two above scenarios happen in the next 10 years. There will be no excuses not to make it happen. I will no longer able to blame my parents for holding me back, or blame youth for being the source of my ineptitude. I am solely responsible for what happens in my life now.
Well...me and fate.
Also, it has always been my dream to attend Oxford. Perhaps one day I will be able to make it a reality.
Friday, 11 April 2014
Orange
On a sleepless night
I sigh all alone
How's everyone?
I feel kind of lonely
I don't know why, but i'm feeling all sentimental towards the past again. I don't know what it's like for other people, but I've been suffering from a more serious case of nostalgia than normal lately.
On a side note, i do have to say this though:
Its been raining continuously for 3 days so i've had to ride my bike in the rain to and from work, so yes at present i am finding the working life miserable.
I mean wtf is this shit Melbourne, i thought you were supposed to have a dry climate.
Its been raining continuously for 3 days so i've had to ride my bike in the rain to and from work, so yes at present i am finding the working life miserable.
I mean wtf is this shit Melbourne, i thought you were supposed to have a dry climate.
Anywho...
I really don't know, because to be honest, there is no period in my life where as a whole it is better than it is now.
I am quite happy with where I am, or where I am heading towards.
More importantly, I have happy with the person I have become - as in im not as much of an idiot anymore.
Perhaps then, things would have turned out differently.
Or maybe not. Maybe our fate has already been predetermined, and no matter what kind of person I am or becomes, things would've still turned out the way they did.
Still, i do miss those days.
Tuesday, 25 March 2014
Just applied for a graduate role today
Coincidentally, I found out that on the exact same day one year ago, I applied for the exact same role for last years intake. Wow, what are the chances of that haha!
I was turned down for the job last time. Second time lucky I hope?
What a story that would be to tell my kids.
I was turned down for the job last time. Second time lucky I hope?
What a story that would be to tell my kids.
Tuesday, 18 March 2014
Time waits for no one
At 7am this morning my phone alarm dutifully roused me from my sleep with its delightful music, signalling the start of another work week. As I scrambled for my phone to shut it down, my eyes by chance glanced at the date-
17 March 2014.
Despite it being a Monday morning and having only had 6 hours sleep the previous night, my brain somehow managed to do a series of complex logarithmic calculations which led to the final deduction of a single, raw, undeniable, ugly fact: its exactly one month away from my 23rd birthday.
What the fuck. What the actual fuck.
That can't be right. I must still be half asleep. I must really need that coffee.
I can't be nearly 23 years old. I couldn't believe it. I refuse to believe it.
The sudden realisation that time waits for no one was a real wake up call to me (no pun intended).
It seems that for the past year and a half or so, I have been so absorbed in moving forward that I forgot to stop, take stock of my life, and look back on how far I have come.
It's as if I have been in a trance all this time, and finally awoke one day to find that I am living in a strange place surrounded by strange faces, and that I am no longer young.
I suddenly felt extremely nostalgic and sentimental. I began to miss all my friends in NZ and reminisce about the good times that we used to have. One moment we were all happily hanging out in IC0 or having dinner, going karaoke and playing pool, and the next everyone is in different places doing different things. It's as if in the blink of an eye, we have all been teleported into the real world and forced into adult roles.
I know this all sounds stupid, because I know there were times during last year when days felt like years, when time passed by painfully slow as I laboured away on assignments. But for some reason, looking back now, the past 5 years of uni seemed to just flash by.
As much as I am enjoying the adult life now, I really do miss those years, for whatever they were worth. Sure, i was a fucking idiot at times, but I even feel nostalgic about that idiotic naivety and innocence (or ignorance) which I have lost.
Living on my own for the past year has forced me to grow up faster than I would have liked to. In my drive to make something of myself, it seems as if I have become alienated from many of my friends. Of course this is in a large part associated with me being in another country. But nonetheless, recently I am increasingly feeling like I have lost touch with people that I used to know so well. Sure, I have many friends in Melbourne now, and even some of my Auckland friends are moving here. But I really miss the friendships and good times that I used to have.
It sounds kinda cliched I know, but its the cruel reality of nature. People change. Lives change. Nothing is ever static. Even if i wanted to stop everything right now and try to go back to the past, I cant. Time waits for no one.
17 March 2014.
Despite it being a Monday morning and having only had 6 hours sleep the previous night, my brain somehow managed to do a series of complex logarithmic calculations which led to the final deduction of a single, raw, undeniable, ugly fact: its exactly one month away from my 23rd birthday.
What the fuck. What the actual fuck.
That can't be right. I must still be half asleep. I must really need that coffee.
I can't be nearly 23 years old. I couldn't believe it. I refuse to believe it.
The sudden realisation that time waits for no one was a real wake up call to me (no pun intended).
It seems that for the past year and a half or so, I have been so absorbed in moving forward that I forgot to stop, take stock of my life, and look back on how far I have come.
It's as if I have been in a trance all this time, and finally awoke one day to find that I am living in a strange place surrounded by strange faces, and that I am no longer young.
I suddenly felt extremely nostalgic and sentimental. I began to miss all my friends in NZ and reminisce about the good times that we used to have. One moment we were all happily hanging out in IC0 or having dinner, going karaoke and playing pool, and the next everyone is in different places doing different things. It's as if in the blink of an eye, we have all been teleported into the real world and forced into adult roles.
I know this all sounds stupid, because I know there were times during last year when days felt like years, when time passed by painfully slow as I laboured away on assignments. But for some reason, looking back now, the past 5 years of uni seemed to just flash by.
As much as I am enjoying the adult life now, I really do miss those years, for whatever they were worth. Sure, i was a fucking idiot at times, but I even feel nostalgic about that idiotic naivety and innocence (or ignorance) which I have lost.
Living on my own for the past year has forced me to grow up faster than I would have liked to. In my drive to make something of myself, it seems as if I have become alienated from many of my friends. Of course this is in a large part associated with me being in another country. But nonetheless, recently I am increasingly feeling like I have lost touch with people that I used to know so well. Sure, I have many friends in Melbourne now, and even some of my Auckland friends are moving here. But I really miss the friendships and good times that I used to have.
It sounds kinda cliched I know, but its the cruel reality of nature. People change. Lives change. Nothing is ever static. Even if i wanted to stop everything right now and try to go back to the past, I cant. Time waits for no one.
Monday, 3 February 2014
So its the year of the horse...
And in the wake of horse puns spurring all of us to success, I have left my old job at EPA and galloped into a new one (pun intended). Its a 4 month full time casual contract with a contaminated soil treatment facility as Junior Environmental Engineer. My goal of becoming an environmental engineer has finally been realised! (for now).
So today was my first day. I had to get up at 5:50am because the facility is located 50km from where i currently live. I have to bike to the train station, take the train into CBD, transfer to another train there, then finally bike from the train station to the facility. The whole trip takes 2 hours, and consists of a 7km bike ride, some of which is over unpaved grass "paths". Then I have to do it again after work.
As bad as I think that is, apparently 2 hour commutes to work are normal in China, so really I dont have much to complain about. The things we do for our dreams aye?
Other than that, today was pretty good. The office is made up of 8 people in total, excluding me. Of the 8, 6 of them are executive management roles, so other than a receptionist chick and a secretary lady, im like the only normal employee in the office. The execs all have their own offices, so its just me in the communal working area, which is kinda weird lol. The good thing is, I have a bunch of very highly qualified industry experts to mentor me.
On the bright side, I will be moving in 3 weeks to a place much closer. It is in a better part of Melbourne and it will reduce my travel time by half. If you don't know already, Nick is also moving to Melbourne, so the two of us will be flatting together. I found (with the help of Jeannie) a nice two bedroom apartment thats fully furnished, so looking forward to when we move in.
Since its a new year, I will also make some new years resolutions:
1. Stay smokefree (have been for the last 2 months)
2. Get fit and healthy
3. Make my relationship even stronger
4. Save up money
5. Find a more permanent job (as much as I'd like to work in a variety of places).
Wish you all a happy new year and 祝你马到成功，马上发财，早开宝马！！
So today was my first day. I had to get up at 5:50am because the facility is located 50km from where i currently live. I have to bike to the train station, take the train into CBD, transfer to another train there, then finally bike from the train station to the facility. The whole trip takes 2 hours, and consists of a 7km bike ride, some of which is over unpaved grass "paths". Then I have to do it again after work.
As bad as I think that is, apparently 2 hour commutes to work are normal in China, so really I dont have much to complain about. The things we do for our dreams aye?
Other than that, today was pretty good. The office is made up of 8 people in total, excluding me. Of the 8, 6 of them are executive management roles, so other than a receptionist chick and a secretary lady, im like the only normal employee in the office. The execs all have their own offices, so its just me in the communal working area, which is kinda weird lol. The good thing is, I have a bunch of very highly qualified industry experts to mentor me.
On the bright side, I will be moving in 3 weeks to a place much closer. It is in a better part of Melbourne and it will reduce my travel time by half. If you don't know already, Nick is also moving to Melbourne, so the two of us will be flatting together. I found (with the help of Jeannie) a nice two bedroom apartment thats fully furnished, so looking forward to when we move in.
Since its a new year, I will also make some new years resolutions:
1. Stay smokefree (have been for the last 2 months)
2. Get fit and healthy
3. Make my relationship even stronger
4. Save up money
5. Find a more permanent job (as much as I'd like to work in a variety of places).
Wish you all a happy new year and 祝你马到成功，马上发财，早开宝马！！
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