We live in a complex, dynamic world that is constantly changing

In my minds eye, the cityscape viewed from Devonport had always been much bigger. But today, upon seeing it again, Auckland city seemed so far away, so tiny. The magic of its charm has been lost. Staring at it across the water, I didn't feel anything. I felt detached from it, as if it belonged in another world. I guess i'm finally over everything. Everything that this city resembles, offers, and contains. Its history, its landmarks, its people. Im over it all.

"It looks so big but its actually so empty," one of my friends said.
She's right.

Scrolling down the pages of facebook, photos of people living their lives pop up everywhere. In a way, i find it consoling. Everyone is doing something with their life, walking their own path, finding their own directions. Again, it just reinforces what i've increasingly known and have now come to accept - we live in a complex, dynamic world that is constantly changing. People are changing, relationships are changing, livelihoods are changing. Even my own life, which has always seemed so static to me, has changed drastically over the past few months without me even realising. Ive now realised the futility of trying to fight against change, to maintain the status quo, to hold on to relics of the past. Instead, i've learnt to embrace the change, even enjoy it - for it is a natural part of life.

A few things that's happened lately has made me really happy. A notable one is my improved relationship with my family, particularly with my parents. I feel like the atmosphere is really good at home right now and the sound of laughter can always be heard. Even after a tiring day at work, we can all sit at the dinner table and talk and laugh about the days events. To be able to emotionally open up to my parents and connect with them gives me a satisfaction and happiness that i have not known for a long time.

Another notable thing is that one of my closest friend has finally found happiness. I am truly glad for him, for he deserves every bit of it. He is a truly good guy who works hard, and now he has been generously awarded by life. Hes now got the whole package - car, job, and girl. Congratulations bro, you deserve it.

As for me, things are starting to look up too. In fact, its a little frightening when things start going my way, because im not used to it, and i feel as if at any moment its all going to be taken away from me and ill wake up to find that life has once again played a cruel joke on me. But no, i know now that you get out what you put in. My past failures has merely been a result of my lack of effort, with perhaps only a pinch of bad luck. I truly look forward to this semester. I have no expectations for anyone else, but i do have expectations for myself and what i should achieve. I know where my rightful place is now. All i have to do is claim it. POKEMON!!