如烟

Our lives are fragile like a wisp of smoke, the slightest draft will blow it away, and no traces of it will be left. Everything seems to be balanced on our fingertips, its so easy to just give up on your dreams and have your whole life fall apart. One wrong decision, one wrong turn, can change everything. If we let our guard down for even the slightest moment, life will jump at the opportunity and punish us dearly for it.

Sometimes, that's what i really think. Then i realise, in the grand scheme of things, how little our mistakes and problems matter. What doesn't kill you can only make you stronger. If i've lived with life for 20 years, why would i give up on anything now? I won't give up chasing the things i want just because of some failures, i want it too much to do so. We are innately programmed to chase the things that we truly want. Its only a matter of how much we want it.

So what if life doesn't last forever? That's the beauty of life - its ephemeral. A moment is only as special as it is fleeting. If an embrace could last forever, it would not longer be magical, not to mention how tired my arms would get. The fact that everything has an expiration date will only make me treasure everything more. Why would i bother to get out of the house to look at the cherry blossoms if they are still going to be there the next day, and the day after, and everyday after that? Why would i want life to be static? It is only change that keeps life interesting. Even the past decisions that i've made that i once thought were mistakes, might prove to be actually a step in the right direction. Like they say, one closed door opens ten new ones.

If i truly had the ability to control the stars and the sun, i would completely fuck up the fragile ecosystem balance of the earth and we would all end up dead. If a roses petals would never fall, then that's obviously the fakes one you buy from the $2 shop. If there was no deadline for my assignment, i would never do it. Why would i want to have the ability to erase my past, when the road that i've walked is what defines me? How can i say i've lived life to it's fullest when i haven't experienced sadness, regret, loss and pain?

Everything in life is relative. For every yin, there is a yang. Without darkness, there would be no light. Without sadness, there would be no happiness. Without ugliness, there would be no beauty. Without pain, there would be no pleasure. Without endings, there would be no beginnings.

Yes, i would love to be able to live my life over again and correct all my mistakes. But then it would no longer be my life. Yes, there are moments in life that i wish they could last forever. But then i would miss out on all the other great moments. Yes, i wish i could live forever. But then i would miss out on the chance of being reincarnated as a panda in my next life.

I guess what im really trying to say is, I could sit here regretting not doing my assignments earlier, wishing i could turn back time and do things differently. Or, i could just do it now.

Btw, listen to  如烟 by 五月天，its a beautiful song.
And watch this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w22_64mOsNY&NR=1&feature=fvwp