Hello

so like my eye's kinda infected, so i probably should stop staring at my computer screen and go to sleep. but i really dont want to. cause going to sleep means having to face a new day, and im not sure i can deal with the future right now. its been a pretty fun past few days, my ass has barely touched home. its times like these that i really wish i didn't live with my family. its not that i dont love them, im just craving a more independent lifestyle right now. i want a 9 to 5 job and my own apartment. ill work hard during the weekdays, and party with my friends on the weekends. i feel like my summer has only truly just begun, and already uni is only a week away. where did the past 3 and a half months disappear to? time really does fly. does this mean ive just been doing the same things over and over again? or that im having the time of my life?

although im entering the new school year with a sense of dread and trepidation, there is also a slight feeling of excitement. i can finally find out what my true potential is. if i can work hard and persevere through the toughest of times and still triumph. if i can really achieve something great and make something of myself. if i can become someone my parents are proud of and someone who can support his wife and kids. will i be able to get 9A+s? and will i finally be able to find a girlfriend?

lololololol so like its a quarter after one.
yes, im all alone and i need you now.
jokes.
sif im that weak.
but fuck, im so confused right now.
maybe uni is a good thing, itll allow me to distance myself from everyone and everything, and just focus on my studies.
oh how life toys with me.