Clubbing, take 2

So I think I made a post about clubbing around 2 years ago listing all the reasons why its such a disappointment and waste of money. Well contrary to what I said in that post, I actually had a good clubbing experience last night. It was still expensive as fuck, and i won't be going again unless I have my own income, but i had fun.

I don't know why. Maybe it was because it was my first time clubbing in Melbourne and the novelty of it made it fun. Maybe it was because the clubs in Auckland were just shit. Maybe it was because the people I went with were fun. Maybe it was because this time i wasn't trying to 'get girls'. Maybe it was because I found that perfect level of drunkeness where you could let go of your inhibitions and have fun without completely losing control of yourself. Or maybe it was a combination of these things.

Regardless of the reasons, I was able to let go of myself and just danced all night. I used to think it was awkward to dance by yourself. But last night, if I wasn't dancing with people I knew, I would just dance by myself. It didn't matter, because you become immersed in the crowd and the music and its like everyone is dancing together. In reality, no one actually gives a shit about what youre doing so I stopped caring and just lost myself in the music. Plus its a lot better than standing in the periphery looking into the crowd like a creep.

It felt really good to let go i have to say. Even though I don't like to go clubbing, I've always enjoyed the club environment. The thumping bass of the music, the pulsing energy of the crowd, the feel good vibe that everyone gave off, it gets me so high. When this is mixed with the perfect amount of alcohol, I was able to lose myself. I found myself closing my eyes and letting the rhythm of the music take control of my body. All the pain, stress and pressures that have accumulated within me this year and all my worries about the future were exuded from my body through the pores of my skin and evaporated into thin air. I felt light and free and simultaneously the urge to scream with all my might.

I haven't felt this way since the Motley Crue concert 6 months ago.

I don't think last night has changed my opinion of clubs, but I can see now why people go there so much. I think its good to let go all that pent up negative emotions once in a while and dancing at clubs may be a good outlet for that, especially techno/trance/electronic music...

...or maybe they're just there to get laid.