Winter

I still remember that post i made last winter. Can't believe it's been a year already. Winter used to be my least favourite season of the year. Its cold, its wet, and its dark. But chilling on my balcony today, i've finally realised its beauty. There is a deep, serene, melancholic beauty to winter that is not obvious at first glance. The lament of the sky, the carpet of fallen yellow leaves, the solemnity of a tree with its branches bare, the nakedness and rawness and grimness and loneliness of it all, is beautiful in its own way. Even the chill that seeps through the layers of my clothe is comforting in its own way.

Recently, i've watched an anime series called Koi Kaze, or Love Wind. Its about an incestuous relationship between two siblings who are 12 years in age difference. They were estranged from each at a young age due to their parents divorce, but met by accident a decade later. It was only later that they found out they were siblings, but the seeds of attraction were already sown. Despite its controversial topic, it is one of the sweetest and most genuine romance stories i have ever seen. The emotional struggles of both characters to come to terms with their own feelings and their internal battle with the morals society imposes on them makes it a very riveting and believable story. Watching this anime has made me realise the importance of boundaries. I know im an emotional person, but there are times when it is important to be rational, for the long term benefit of all parties involved. The old me would have rooted for them, believing that emotional fulfillment is of the utmost importance in life. But now ive realised, life is more complex than just that. It would be naive to think that being honest to my emotions is the only thing that matters. There are simply too many factors to consider. Its all good to think "fuck societal norms and lets just be happy", but the long term implications of such a relationship just makes it too unpractical. Sometimes, we just have to know our boundaries, know our place. Ha, now im starting to sound like someone i know.

Anyways, here's the intro song to the anime. Listen to it, its amazing. And if you ever get the chance, watch the anime, you won't regret it. But if you're just looking for a cheap thrill, then this probably aint for you.