New Zealand's very own Taylor Swift!

I can't stop listening to this song O_O

Got new anime from Wayne! TEEHEE!

Anime is making a revival in my life. I first picked it up at the end of highschool and watched intensively for the first year of uni. Then it was absent from my life for about 2 years, and now finally its back again. I've been somewhat reluctant to let it back into my life previously, not wanting to lose myself in that whimsical world again. But now, i can't wait to jump in to a new adventure. Let the good times begin!

The world is moving so rapidly

BAM, the Miami Heat have won the NBA championship with 4 straight wins.
BAM, my exams are over.
BAM, the semester is over.
Everything is changing so fast, it's hard for me to keep up.
It feels like i've only put my head down for just a second, and the next time i look up, my entire surrounding has changed. Relationships have changed. People have changed. I have changed.

Although i've always had a intense dislike for Lebron James, i'm truly happy for him. I think he deserved to win this championship. For all the shit that he gets, he's put up some amazing numbers this postseason. You gotta hand it to the guy, he's good. His journey to his first NBA championship title has been rather remarkable, and i can't help but feel inspired by his story. He is someone who has endured countless failures and setbacks. He's shouldered a lot of criticisms, hatred, and pressures from the public. Yet despite such a heavy burden, he has managed to claw his way back from a shattering defeat last year to clinch the title. His spirit, his will, and his tenacity in the face of such insurmountable odds is really something to be admired.

The Thunders loss and the Heats win has made me realise how fine the line between failure and success is. Its made me realise that failure doesn't necessarily mean you are completely inadequate, for Kevin Durant has put up just as good a performance. Failure doesn't make me a worse person. It doesn't mean I will fail at life. In fact, the bitter taste of failure will only make me stronger. At the end of the day (or season should i say), i think we can all take a leaf out of Lebrons book. I want to become someone like him. Someone who can come back from a defeat that might've destroyed a lesser man, and triumph over it through hard work and dedication. I believe that through strength of will, i will be able to succeed one day too, just like him. I have failed many times before, made many mistakes. But now i know it is possible to win. If i can overcome my flaws and persevere, i can become a champion one day too.

It has been a tough semester i have to say, maybe the toughest i've been through. I've fallen to the ground many times, but somehow i've managed to pick myself back up and pushed onwards. In a way, im glad that everything that has happened, has happened. It has shaped me into a stronger, more independent person. I know now, what i am capable of. The fear, the doubt, the uncertainty, its all still there. Its never going to go away. But i feel like i can embrace them a little more.

I look forward to the challenge that semester 2 will present. I look forward to studying harder, and getting even better grades. I look forward to fully realising my full potential. And i look forward to surviving, by myself. What they say is true: what doesn't kill you can only make you stronger.

Well isn't this is a pleasant surprise

6 followers now!

HI SUSANNA :p

Gonna beat them all!

Goes along to the theme song for Pokemon

I want to be the very best

Like no one ever was

I will overcome every test

And eliminate all my flaws

I will travel across the Tasman

Learning far and wide

By my own strength i shall stand

And rise like the tide

Gonna beat them all!

Its the world against me

I know this is my destiny

Only myself can i depend

In a world i can't comprehend

Gonna beat them all!

What my heart feels is true

My courage will pull me through

You will see, i will beat you
Gonna beat them all!

Every challenge along the way

With courage i will face

I will push myself everyday

Till i reach my rightful place

Rise up, the time is nigh

I shan't fall apart at the seams

Alone i shall win the fight

And realise my lifelong dream

Gonna beat you all.

My marks for assignments ive done over the semester

are slowly trickling in. And with each one, i feel a greater boost of confidence. Finally, i have something to show for all the hard work i've put into these pieces of work. Something tangible. Something concrete. Something to prove what i am made of, what i can achieve. No longer do i only have empty words of my 'potential'. Now i suddenly feel:

motivated
empowered
determined
rejuvenated
excited

Last exam left. I'm going to finish this semester with a bang. FIGHTING!

Winter

I still remember that post i made last winter. Can't believe it's been a year already. Winter used to be my least favourite season of the year. Its cold, its wet, and its dark. But chilling on my balcony today, i've finally realised its beauty. There is a deep, serene, melancholic beauty to winter that is not obvious at first glance. The lament of the sky, the carpet of fallen yellow leaves, the solemnity of a tree with its branches bare, the nakedness and rawness and grimness and loneliness of it all, is beautiful in its own way. Even the chill that seeps through the layers of my clothe is comforting in its own way.

Recently, i've watched an anime series called Koi Kaze, or Love Wind. Its about an incestuous relationship between two siblings who are 12 years in age difference. They were estranged from each at a young age due to their parents divorce, but met by accident a decade later. It was only later that they found out they were siblings, but the seeds of attraction were already sown. Despite its controversial topic, it is one of the sweetest and most genuine romance stories i have ever seen. The emotional struggles of both characters to come to terms with their own feelings and their internal battle with the morals society imposes on them makes it a very riveting and believable story. Watching this anime has made me realise the importance of boundaries. I know im an emotional person, but there are times when it is important to be rational, for the long term benefit of all parties involved. The old me would have rooted for them, believing that emotional fulfillment is of the utmost importance in life. But now ive realised, life is more complex than just that. It would be naive to think that being honest to my emotions is the only thing that matters. There are simply too many factors to consider. Its all good to think "fuck societal norms and lets just be happy", but the long term implications of such a relationship just makes it too unpractical. Sometimes, we just have to know our boundaries, know our place. Ha, now im starting to sound like someone i know.

Anyways, here's the intro song to the anime. Listen to it, its amazing. And if you ever get the chance, watch the anime, you won't regret it. But if you're just looking for a cheap thrill, then this probably aint for you.

While I love what i am studying...

...there are moments where i doubt the practicality of my degree. Sometimes i feel like i've made the wrong choice in life, and that i would've been better off doing a more standard degree, like engineering. Insinuations of doubt slither and worm their way into my mind, like "where am i going with this degree?" and "is my profession inferior to others" and "will i be able to get a good job". But today i just realised, i will play a very important role in this world. We (people of my profession) are doctors. Doctors for ecosystems. We identify and diagnose environmental problems, and we offer solutions to cure it. We are people who can save the environment. Medical graduates will save lives. We will save the world.

Hey its 4 in the morning
And this is crazy
But i'm ravaged by hunger
And haven't done any study

My tenant's cat and I have the BEST conversations

A typical conversation between her and I:

*Me chilling at my window*
*Tenants cat paddles across the driveway*

Me: MEOW! meow meow meowww meow?
She pauses, looks up at me: Dude i have no idea what the fuck you just said.
Me: meow meow meow meoww :3
Her: You're an idiot.
*rolls eyes and walks off*
Her black friend: You know that guy?
Her: Nope.
Me: meow...

The best procrastination/study break website ever

http://cuteoverload.com/

DO NOT READ THIS POST

If you have not seen the finale of HIMYM season 7.

Warning: contains spoilers.

Sorry, but i really need to write about this.

Im still in shock, even though i knew who the bride was going to be.

So don't read this if you want to find out the answer for yourself.

Last chance to look away.

Better yet, go watch season 7 now.

Okay.

Don't say i didn't warn you.


WOW, what a finale. FINALLY some answers.....that only raises more questions than it solves, but that's besides the point. Two bombs dropped in the last episode that can be ranked a "10" on the crisis rating, and can have some serious implications.

1. Robin is revealed to be the bride at Barney's wedding. Which means that Barney's engagement to Quinn flopped. And that Robin and Ted probably won't end up together (yes im still rooting for those two). Its a shame really, i thought Barney and Quinn looked good together. They really suited each other.

2. Ted elopes with Victoria. Which means Clause gets left at the altar, and that Victoria could potentially be the mom. Personally, i don't think Victoria is the mom, for numerous reasons that i won't bother to go into details here. But it'd be a sweet notion if she was, seeing as Victoria was Ted's first girlfriend since the show started.

I seriously don't know what to think of this episode. The whole Barney-Robin-Quinn arc i could somewhat foresee, and my suspicions were confirmed at the point just before they showed Robin's face in the wedding dress (yes i recognised her boobs). But Ted and Victoria. Wow. That came as a shock to me. I can understand the rationale behind Ted choosing to elope with Victoria, as he is finally overcoming his fears and taking hold of fate and creating his own destiny by securing what he wants, but that's pretty selfish. He is partially responsible for another man being left at the altar, a feeling which he can empathise with and therefore he really should have shown better judgement. Although i am a romantic and he probably felt like she was truly the one and that if he let her go he'd probably regret it for the rest of his life but the reality is that things probably won't work out and he'll break her heart, again. Especially given everything thats happened on the show, personally i think its highly unlikely that she is the mother.

So yea, i'd just like to take this opportunity to say: WTF IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE?? Why are they all so fickle?? They keep changing their minds about each other, and everyone seems to be going in circles. Ted, Robin, Barney. The 3 of them just need to make up their fucking minds and stick with it. It feels like even Robin and Barney are still not set in stone, given the history of the show and an uncanny tendency of brides to get cold feet on their wedding day. I think Robin was right. Ted is only single because of his own making. What used to seem like romantic idealism to me is now just cowardice, naivety, fickleness, and insecurity. Ted just needs to man the fuck up and stick with one girl. Or risk dying alone.

Overall i think season 7 has been as good as any other season. It got off to a slow start but its really picked up in quality in the second half. I really like the character development of Barney and how much depth he's shown this season. I also like the addition of Quinn. I think she is one of the better female support characters. In terms of comedic entertainment, i still find alot of the episodes funny, and found myself laughing out loud on more than one occasion. What the show HAS lost in humour, i think its made up for it in depth and sentiment. Only things that kinda annoyed me were the sudden and somewhat unrealistic plot twists, but i guess that's what makes these shows so addictive. So yea, this post has somehow turned into a review and i probably lost all of my readers at the title (lol nice one bobby but you dont have any readers). But seriously, i think i haven't lost faith in HIMYM quite yet, and its still one of my all time favourite shows, alongside Community.

So yep, that's gonna be my closing statement. Bobby out.

The stars are beautiful tonight!

Its been a while since i've seen the stars and the moon shine so bright. Man, i really miss 2011. Despite everything that happened in that year, it was my favourite year. I think i was happiest then. I  really miss those days, when everyone was together. Just one big happy family you know? Although it was brief, i really felt like i was a part of something. I felt like i truly found a group that i belonged to. It just felt so nice you know? Everyone was happy and everything felt so innocent and comfortable. I wish it could've lasted forever. I wish things didn't change. I wish people didn't drift apart. I wish break-ups were only something you saw in movies and conflicts were something that could be resolved simply by saying im sorry. Why did things have to change? Why did people have to break up? Why couldn't we resolve our differences? Why did i have to fuck things up? Why did we all drift apart, instead of becoming even more like family? Sigh, i wish things could go back to the way they were. I wish there wasn't this chasm that divided all of us. I wish things didn't have to change. Maybe im the only one that feels this way, but i really miss those times.

lol my tenants cat has finally warmed up to me

after about 6 months of avoiding me and being scared of me, i think she's finally accepted me. although she still seems to hold some reservations for me, we've found mutual comfort in each others presence. as i type this now, she's grooming herself right beside me. i think i can count that as a vote of confidence hehe. she's let me pet her before on one or two occasions, but this is the first time shes seemed so comfortable around me. i think she likes the scent of tobacco, cause my tenant smokes and she keeps smelling my fingers. or maybe shes finally succumbed to my alluring charm. whatever the reason, im just happy ive made a new friend.

the weathers amazing today. its a good day to be sitting outside on my front doorstep just enjoying the sun and the quiet company of this shy but cute feline. life is pretty hard, but right now, im just happy to enjoy the warmth and serenity of this moment. i think whatever happens, everything is going to work out in the end somehow. maybe it won't be the way i envisaged it to be, but it'll be the way its meant to be. yes i stole that line from online, but i really believe in it.