Long distance

Every day you are confronted with the happiness of other couples, and a mixture of emotions well up inside. Happiness, admiration, envy, jealousy, anger, sadness, nostalgia. You think back to the good times you've had, and you dream about what could've been inside your arms at this very moment. And then comes the doubt. You doubt yourself. You doubt your decision to leave her in the pursuit of your dreams. You ask yourself is it really all worth it. The pain. The longing. The cherished memories that begin to haunt your waking moments. You ask yourself what are even your dreams. And there's no right answer.

But then the moment passes. You tell yourself there's only this many days left before you see her. Wasn't it this number yesterday? You readjust your bag strap on your shoulder, tighten your coat around your body, take a long draw on your cigarette, look straight ahead, and keep walking forwards.