so ive been back from china for a week now and yet i have not written a single blog post. i dreamt up so many ideas whilst in china but couldnt write them down since blogspot was banned in china and i wasnt about to write it down on word since im so used to this medium and itd feel like i was doing an assignment and then itd become a chore instead, so now ive forgotten alot of the clever and witty things i wanted to say and even if i didnt forget, ive kinda lost interest in what i have to say anyway. additionally i feel as if my english has degenerated greatly in the past month from lack of use to the point that even if i wanted to say something, i wouldnt be able to articulate it. i think ive also lost the ability to write anything remotely descriptive. there were so many emotions and sentiments i felt in china and so many magical moments that i wanted to capture with words but simply couldnt come up with the right ones. whats more, these days im just so tired from work that i dont really want to write anything anyways.