studying is hard...
and i miss you.
Monday, 29 October 2012
Some thought on social disparities
So I accompanied my mother to the specialist this morning to help her translate. For a 25minute consultation with the specialist, it cost her $320.
I was a little shocked and disgusted by the ridiculousness of the price. I mean I knew specialists made a lot, but charging that kind of price and getting away with it is like getting away with murder.
But walking out of there, I felt a sense of righteous anger rise up within me. I know that these doctors have worked very hard to get to where they are today, but to charge average citizens like my mother half of her week's wage just for a 25mintue consultation is just fucking bullshit. No wonder most people cannot afford to see a doctor. Its professions like this that contribute to social disparities between the rich and the poor. While ordinary people have to work just as hard everyday if not harder only to make 1/20th of what he makes, people in high end professions sit in their own offices with their own receptionists, and enjoy a tax cut from John Key.
Its not my mother that's sick, its this society.
So, I've come to the conclusion that i need to study harder, and work harder, so that one day I can charge him a ridiculous amount of money too if he just wants to build something in his own backyard.
I was a little shocked and disgusted by the ridiculousness of the price. I mean I knew specialists made a lot, but charging that kind of price and getting away with it is like getting away with murder.
But walking out of there, I felt a sense of righteous anger rise up within me. I know that these doctors have worked very hard to get to where they are today, but to charge average citizens like my mother half of her week's wage just for a 25mintue consultation is just fucking bullshit. No wonder most people cannot afford to see a doctor. Its professions like this that contribute to social disparities between the rich and the poor. While ordinary people have to work just as hard everyday if not harder only to make 1/20th of what he makes, people in high end professions sit in their own offices with their own receptionists, and enjoy a tax cut from John Key.
Its not my mother that's sick, its this society.
So, I've come to the conclusion that i need to study harder, and work harder, so that one day I can charge him a ridiculous amount of money too if he just wants to build something in his own backyard.
Tuesday, 23 October 2012
Finding a job is like finding a girlfriend
You're always on the lookout for vacancies.
When you find one that you believe you have the suitable qualifications for, you go for it.
You find out as much as you can about it, you do your homework.
Then you polish up your resume, and you put on a new cover letter.
And when you've done all your preparation, you apply for it.
Sometimes you will get outright rejected.
The nice ones will send you a message saying you don't meet the requirements, but should stay on the mailing list in case another opportunity arises.
The mean ones don't bother replying at all.
But if you're lucky, you will make it to the next stage.
Then the preparation starts all over again.
You practice your lines in front of the mirror, going over every situation in your head, and how you could respond confidently and in a witty fashion.
You put on some fancy clothes, and you spend hours on your appearance.
You ask your friends for advice.
Maybe you'll even ask your parents for advice.
You tell yourself you are confident, you are capable, you are smart, you can do this.
Then you go and have the talk.
This is where most people will fall short.
After all, they're only looking for one person in a sea of applicants.
But if you're persistent.
If you keep seeking.
And you keep trying.
And you keep applying.
Eventually, one day, you will find the job that is just right for you.
A job that will be willing to accept you, for who you are.
Despite all your flaws and the mistakes you've made in the past.
Despite your lack of experience and mediocre academic history.
They will take you.
And you will be that one lucky guy who got the job.
In the end, its not about getting your dream job.
Its about finding the one that most suits you.
Then you'll realise that this is what you've been looking for the entire time.
But, if you don't seek, you won't find.
I will find the right job!
When you find one that you believe you have the suitable qualifications for, you go for it.
You find out as much as you can about it, you do your homework.
Then you polish up your resume, and you put on a new cover letter.
And when you've done all your preparation, you apply for it.
Sometimes you will get outright rejected.
The nice ones will send you a message saying you don't meet the requirements, but should stay on the mailing list in case another opportunity arises.
The mean ones don't bother replying at all.
But if you're lucky, you will make it to the next stage.
Then the preparation starts all over again.
You practice your lines in front of the mirror, going over every situation in your head, and how you could respond confidently and in a witty fashion.
You put on some fancy clothes, and you spend hours on your appearance.
You ask your friends for advice.
Maybe you'll even ask your parents for advice.
You tell yourself you are confident, you are capable, you are smart, you can do this.
Then you go and have the talk.
This is where most people will fall short.
After all, they're only looking for one person in a sea of applicants.
But if you're persistent.
If you keep seeking.
And you keep trying.
And you keep applying.
Eventually, one day, you will find the job that is just right for you.
A job that will be willing to accept you, for who you are.
Despite all your flaws and the mistakes you've made in the past.
Despite your lack of experience and mediocre academic history.
They will take you.
And you will be that one lucky guy who got the job.
In the end, its not about getting your dream job.
Its about finding the one that most suits you.
Then you'll realise that this is what you've been looking for the entire time.
But, if you don't seek, you won't find.
I will find the right job!
If i could make one wish
It would be that i could enjoy everything that i do, whether it be cleaning my room, doing my assignment, or working at a 9-5 job. This way, i would always be happy, no matter what.
Friday, 19 October 2012
Wednesday, 17 October 2012
Im having the best morning today
So in addition to the sore throat, cough and runny nose that i already have, i woke up to a furious nosebleed this morning from one of my nostrils. After waiting for his twin brother to calm his fury, my other nostril decided to erupt too, cause its just one of those days. Now i still have to drag my sorry ass to uni and do my 40% assignment due this friday, so i can start on my 50% assignment due next tuesday.
Yet somehow the more shit life throws at me, the more determined i am to beat it. Its too late to give up now, guess ill just have to finish everything that ive started. Carpe diem bitches.
Yet somehow the more shit life throws at me, the more determined i am to beat it. Its too late to give up now, guess ill just have to finish everything that ive started. Carpe diem bitches.
Friday, 12 October 2012
Life is like a cup of coffee
It's bitter at the beginning, but gets sweeter the more you drink (assuming you put sugar in yours and you don't stir it properly so that most of the sugar ends up at the bottom).
What a beautiful day today is. It's the kind of day you just want to do nothing and spend the entire day lazing in the sun with someone important to you. Instead, im stuck inside finishing my assignment. But the bitter part is almost over, and its gonna make the sweet part taste all that much sweeter.
10 assignments and two tests down, 3 assignments and 2 exams left to go. Fight on!
What a beautiful day today is. It's the kind of day you just want to do nothing and spend the entire day lazing in the sun with someone important to you. Instead, im stuck inside finishing my assignment. But the bitter part is almost over, and its gonna make the sweet part taste all that much sweeter.
10 assignments and two tests down, 3 assignments and 2 exams left to go. Fight on!
Wednesday, 10 October 2012
Lately, i feel like im less reckless with my money
I don't know if its the economic recession or whether im just getting older and wiser or because im no longer responsible just for myself, but i find myself trying (although somewhat failing) to save.
Next year i will no longer be getting allowance, and i am okay with that. I think getting an allowance every week has meant that i've forgotten the value of a dollar. Even though ive worked at least once a week for the past 7 or so years of my life, i still don't fully appreciate how hard money comes. Next year, i will have to support my own outside expenses. Im hoping i will find a suitable job, something in my field. Maybe then, ill finally learn the true value of a dollar, and learn to save money like a responsible adult.
But first, i gotta quit smoking. That's $16 ill be saving every week, which is $800 a year!
Next year i will no longer be getting allowance, and i am okay with that. I think getting an allowance every week has meant that i've forgotten the value of a dollar. Even though ive worked at least once a week for the past 7 or so years of my life, i still don't fully appreciate how hard money comes. Next year, i will have to support my own outside expenses. Im hoping i will find a suitable job, something in my field. Maybe then, ill finally learn the true value of a dollar, and learn to save money like a responsible adult.
But first, i gotta quit smoking. That's $16 ill be saving every week, which is $800 a year!
Monday, 8 October 2012
Friday, 5 October 2012
Lol "daily dose for taurine should not exceed 500mg"
I've consumed about 5000mg in the last 24hrs.
I don't think i'm going to live long...
I don't think i'm going to live long...
Tuesday, 2 October 2012
Dear students graduating today
I sincerely congratulate you on meeting the necessary requirements for the completion of your degree. Today, you will laugh and smile and chat away happily as you celebrate and take photos with your family and friends, creating memories that will be cherished for the rest of your life. But as the laughter dies down and the sun is replaced by the moon, a question will begin to gnaw at you from the back of your mind: "so what now?"
Well, let me tell you what now.Its all gonna be downhill where everyone falls to their demise with no money and no job because uni is one big fucking lie. For some of you, you will go on to accomplish great things. You will start off with a job that pays well, has easy hours, is in the field which you studied, and which interests you. And if you work hard, you will climb up the corporate ladder.
But for most of you graduates, please don't be foolish enough to think its all going to be uphill from now. Most of you are not going to end up in a job that you imagined yourself to be in when you graduate. Its not going to pay particularly well, its not going to be easy, and most particularly, it probably wont have a rat's ass to do with what you studied. Those that work hard may get somewhere yet, but the majority will either be stuck in the same shitty job for the rest of their lives, or drift from job to job.
Even if you are graduating with a PhD, it probably won't mean shit. Because the higher your degree is, the higher your expectations will be, and thus the more likely you will be disappointed. This is the painful truth. This is the cruel nature of reality. In today's world, there are simply too many graduates, and too little good jobs. Someone has to clean the shit out of the toilet. Someone has to sweep the streets. Someone has to grow the food that we eat. You may think those jobs are unfit for a university graduate, and I dont blame you for thinking that, but get ready to be unemployed for a lonnnngggggg fucking time.
To the white girl with the nice smile taking a photo outside engineering holding two degrees, you look like you will go places.
To the leggy blonde with the hot boyfriend,you'll most likely end up working at calendar girls hold on to your man, his suit looks pretty expensive.
Now, don't take this personally. This has more to do with my discontent of the education system, and more than anything, of myself, than anything to do with you. I've learnt the hard way that, university is only worth the investment of money and time if youre going to study properly. If you don't then you really shouldn't be at uni. Go learn a trade, go volunteer for the peacecorp, go work your way around the world, do something useful with your life.
Everyday, i desperately wish i could go back 4 years in time, to when i first started university. If i could, i would do things differently. I guess this is something i only realised at the beginning of this year. That's why ive been studying so hard. But im scared that its already too late. In this world, sometimes you only have one shot at things. If you fuck up, then you'll have to live with your mistake for the rest of your life.
Well, let me tell you what now.
But for most of you graduates, please don't be foolish enough to think its all going to be uphill from now. Most of you are not going to end up in a job that you imagined yourself to be in when you graduate. Its not going to pay particularly well, its not going to be easy, and most particularly, it probably wont have a rat's ass to do with what you studied. Those that work hard may get somewhere yet, but the majority will either be stuck in the same shitty job for the rest of their lives, or drift from job to job.
Even if you are graduating with a PhD, it probably won't mean shit. Because the higher your degree is, the higher your expectations will be, and thus the more likely you will be disappointed. This is the painful truth. This is the cruel nature of reality. In today's world, there are simply too many graduates, and too little good jobs. Someone has to clean the shit out of the toilet. Someone has to sweep the streets. Someone has to grow the food that we eat. You may think those jobs are unfit for a university graduate, and I dont blame you for thinking that, but get ready to be unemployed for a lonnnngggggg fucking time.
To the white girl with the nice smile taking a photo outside engineering holding two degrees, you look like you will go places.
To the leggy blonde with the hot boyfriend,
Now, don't take this personally. This has more to do with my discontent of the education system, and more than anything, of myself, than anything to do with you. I've learnt the hard way that, university is only worth the investment of money and time if youre going to study properly. If you don't then you really shouldn't be at uni. Go learn a trade, go volunteer for the peacecorp, go work your way around the world, do something useful with your life.
Everyday, i desperately wish i could go back 4 years in time, to when i first started university. If i could, i would do things differently. I guess this is something i only realised at the beginning of this year. That's why ive been studying so hard. But im scared that its already too late. In this world, sometimes you only have one shot at things. If you fuck up, then you'll have to live with your mistake for the rest of your life.
Monday, 1 October 2012
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