That awesome moment when you actually understand what the lecture slides are saying

Addiction

everyone is addicted to something. some of us are addicted to television, others are addicted to food, or shopping, or facebook, or gossip, or games, or tetris. all of us are a slave to some form of addiction. i guess its a way to help us cope with the hardships of life.

recently ive given up my addiction for starcraft, and in the process, taken up another. but at least this new addiction is less time consuming. its not exactly better for me, but i prefer this over spending 3 hours of each day on some game that im never gonna be the best at.

and whats all the hype over diablo 3? it seems to be the new craze. first game ive seen wayne buy in ages. just posting a photo of your new diablo copy will score you dozens of likes on fb. i think im gonna stay away from it. i never liked RPGs that much anyways.

Basketball

i want to go to a NBA playoffs game, i really do. i want to lose myself in the sport i love most, borne on the current of the crowds emotions. getting high off clutch 3s and pivotal put-backs. the adrenaline of not knowing who is going to win until the very last second gushing through my veins. my emotions following every twist and turn of the scoreboard, climaxing at the final second as the winner is decided.

god i love hot chelle rae!

honestly, i just dont give a fuck anymore. whatever life throws at me i will just take it all in stride, and stomp its face on the curbside. i got no problem with saying goodbye, so im gonna study tonight.

i used to live by the principle of treat others the way you want to be treated, but apparently it doesnt work. ive given more than has been reciprocated, and its put me at an disadvantage. so from now on, i will treat others the way they treat me.

when it comes to a fight, its not about whos stronger, or whos crazier, its about who has better weapons, and how good you are at using it.

this world is a sick place, with sick rules. im not gonna be another pawn in this sick game.

i wrote this while waiting for the sun to go down. its really shit, but owell it was all that came to mind while sitting there by myself while the sun slowly made its way towards the horizon.

It feels just like in the movies. I'm sitting in the tall grass on a mountain slope watching the sunset in the distance. Below me lies the expanse of the sea, untamed and boundless. To my left, a herd of sheep quietly graze in the afternoon breeze, soaking up what little is left of the sunlight. A mosaic of clouds float listlessly, paying no heed to the demise of the sun. The sun slowly disappears behind an impenetrable wall of dark brooding clouds until only its golden silhouette can be seen. The landscape is cast into shadows. The gentle slope, the sheer rock cliffs, the tireless sea, all of it falls under the spell of darkness. A light turns on in the university laboratory below. If i could paint a picture with a thousand words, i would. But really there's no words adequate or sufficient to describe the beauty of this landscape or the majesty of the scenery before me. You'd really have to be here to experience the beauty of it all. How i wish you were here with me right now, sharing this moment. How many moments like this can we have in a lifetime? Not that many.

Hi im back!

Miss me? Yea, me too.

I'm going on a 3 day field trip tomorrow. Rather excited i have to say. It'll be a good chance to get away from Auckland for awhile, bond with my classmates, and reconnect with mother nature. I will also probably be without internet for a few days. HOW WILL I SURVIVE? Jokes. Should be fun, can't wait n_n

Lately, i've been rather content. I think i've rediscovered myself again, at least to an extent. Now that i've stopped wasting my time thinking about women, ive found myself reconnecting with many of my close male friends who i've become somewhat estranged from in the past few months. It's so much more fun hanging out with just guys. Don't get me wrong, female companionship has its perks too, but guys just make better friends.

These days, ive rekindled my passion in the things that matter to me most. My master's thesis, my body, and basketball. It's all ive been thinking about, and ive dedicated all my time to these things. And i have to say, it feels really good. While i cant say that i am happy, i have definitely found contentedness in these things. Focusing on these aspects of my life has given me new confidence in myself, and i've learnt to be an independent man. Time really flies when you're doing the things you love and not worrying about trivial things.

My dad has always been telling me that our generation is so fortunate. Ive never really understood, thinking that we have it hard. But talking to my international friend today, i think i can finally see things from his point of view. I really am quite lucky. I can come home to my family and a warm delicious meal already waiting for me on the dinner table, whereas she will go home to an empty house after a long day and still have to cook. I dont have to worry about not having enough money to spend, having to cook for myself, and the workload here is really minimal compared to what uni students have to deal with in China. I guess ive really taken these things for granted.

I have to say, i am really looking forward to the future. I look forward to my exams because i can finally show my true potential. And i look forward to being able to study in australia next year where i can finally realise my dream.

Anyways, i better go to sleep, i gots to wake up early tomorrow. Night~

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