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On a sleepless night

I sigh all alone  

How's everyone?  

I feel kind of lonely

I don't know why, but i'm feeling all sentimental towards the past again. I don't know what it's like for other people, but I've been suffering from a more serious case of nostalgia than normal lately.

Is this because im finding the adult, working life miserable? Or is it simply natural to miss the past as you grow older?

On a side note, i do have to say this though: 
Its been raining continuously for 3 days so i've had to ride my bike in the rain to and from work, so yes at present i am finding the working life miserable.
I mean wtf is this shit Melbourne, i thought you were supposed to have a dry climate.

Anywho...

I really don't know, because to be honest, there is no period in my life where as a whole it is better than it is now. 

I am quite happy with where I am, or where I am heading towards. 

More importantly, I have happy with the person I have become - as in im not as much of an idiot anymore.

So why do I keep reminiscing about the past? I guess a part of me really wish that I could be the person I am now, 5 years ago. 

Perhaps then, things would have turned out differently.

Or maybe not. Maybe our fate has already been predetermined, and no matter what kind of person I am or becomes, things would've still turned out the way they did.

Still, i do miss those days.