Gone to find myself. Not sure when I'll be back.

you know what i just realised?
im not easily mislead by my own feelings.
ive just happened to come to know some really amazing women.

i fucking hate facebook chat

I am

i may not sing well

but that doesn't mean my voice is not beautiful

i may not be tall

but that doesn't mean i can't see what's ahead of me

i may not be big

but that doesn't mean i can't protect you

i may not be funny

but that doesn't mean i don't love your smile

i may not be confident

but that doesn't mean i don't know where i should be

i may not be rich

but that doesn't mean i can't give you the world

i may not be experienced

but that doesn't mean i can't show you what love is

i may not be fast

but that doesn't mean i can't take you to places you've never been to

i may not be strong

but that doesn't mean i won't always be there for you

i may not be the most compatible

but that doesn't mean i am not the right person for you

i may not act like it

but you mean the world to me.

Sometimes i wonder

sometimes i wonder if the stars i wish on

are the very same ones you gaze upon

if we both truly live under the same stars

then why are we worlds apart

life is like a matchstick

it burns bright, intense and quick

more brilliant than the stars for a brief moment

before it is snuffed by the moons lament

this torment is more than my soul can bear

yet my eyes refuse to shed a single tear

i stand up and wait for the dizziness to fade

before falling asleep to await another day.

 

祝我生日快乐

永远单身。。。

Sometimes i forget it's 梁静茹 singing

She just reminds me of you. God your voices are similar.

My last day as a 20 year old

My goals for today:

1. Finish writing the draft for my 734 assignment.
2. Bench at least one rep on 65kg.
3. Enjoy the sunshine and my last day as a "teenager".

Its been a heck of a year, pockmarked by yet more fuck-ups, disappointments and regrettable mistakes. But i think i have come out stronger and wiser, and that's what matters. It hasn't been the amazing 20th year that other people have told me it would be, nor has it been the amazing 20th year that i thought it would be. But at least i had a lot of fun. All i can hope is that my 21st year will be better than my 20th, and it'll be up to me to make sure that happens.

Pablo Neruda

pablo neruda

your solitary words

so poignant, so burdened with meaning

like the fragile branch of a tree kneeling

from the weight of overripe fruits

they touch my soul

the way the wind softly caresses the white sails

i am borne on the vessel that is your poetry

drifting towards the distant seas of euphoria.